There are so many things I need to bring out. I’m not a very open person when it comes to expressing myself. And so most of my thoughts are put on a back burner.
I was born and raised in the LDS church. All my growing up years I was taught about it’s teachings and how I can live my life. While I was in that organization. I knew who I was. I knew what life was about and how I can live.
And now I’m really not a part of that church anymore. I found that their teachings are based on lies.
Now I feel like I no place to go; no place of refuge. I feel like a boat without oars, and the waves are just rocking me but I’m not moving anywhere.
Now I feel I need to find my own path. The world is like a huge maze. I just need to find the right course to follow.
Lately I’ve been learnig how to play chess. I love it because I feel like I’m escaping from the real world. Well that’s how I used to feel. Now I see that chess is life and not just a game to play.
I feel that I might have found my solace through chess. Even though it’s still all so new to me. I feel that I’m learning more each time I play a game or watch other people play it.
I still have a long way to go. But I feel as I play and learn about the different moves. I’ll finally learn who I am.
Well this all for now. I will be reporting on my chess games and lessons as I learn more each time. This is going to be interesting.
Goodnight for now.