When I started this project, I was full of fire and zeal toward creating a new site to share and archive some of the best and most relevant content regarding the sham that is mormonism. And here I am, a year since my last update, without that same zeal. Why?
Well, for one, mormons are more or less doing that work for me. Funding marriage inequality (ie, throwing heaps of cash into campaigns to ban gay marriage) and recent news of “squeaky clean” LDS members leading the way in developing the horrid torture techniques that were used during the Bush administration come to mind.
But I guess the main reason for my lack of interest is largely that my life has moved on. I no longer live in a community dominated by the closeted bigotry and hypocrisy, the over-the-shoulder snooping and gossipping that fills the heart of Mormondom. Life hasn’t been easy, and I won’t say everything I’ve experienced since leaving the church has been glorious, but they are honest and free and real. I can breathe free and easily without constant anger and paranoia toward the LDS church.
I still hope that people will find the information that mormonanswers.com set out to archive (and I will admit I am unsettled by the amount of old, but very useful, exmormon websites that will likely be headed for the dustbin when Yahoo closes Geocities very soon) and find reality and a path out of delusion, but the fire under my ass to provide a centralised access point has gone out. There may be reason in the future to revisit the project, but for now, I’m going to get on with my life, and smile.