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Posted: October 18th, 2006, 8:20am EDT by sal
I haven't posted in a little while; I've been extremely busy with school.
Lately I've been thinking about the pressure I feel to have to prove to my entire family that I can be successful as a post-Mormon (apostate).
It may be paranoia, but it feels like everyone I care about is rooting against me. It seems like they want me to fail and be miserable so I will humble myself and come back to
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Posted: October 11th, 2006, 9:11am EDT by sal
The Mormon Church and its members have a skewed sense of what is moral and what is immoral. Case in point:
The church has recently announced that it will be spending between one and two billion (yes, billion) dollars to renovate a mall in downtown Salt Lake City. I find this obscene and immoral to the core. The members have been assured that none of the money for the project comes from
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Posted: October 10th, 2006, 6:14am EDT by sal
I think I might be an atheist.
I've been telling people I'm agnostic, but I'm pretty sure it's just because I'm afraid of what I (don't) believe.
I'm still trying to learn the difference between soft atheist and hard atheist, though, so I'll let you know what side of that divide I land on.
I almost told someone I am an atheist yesterday, but I chickened out. For some reason, the guy
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Posted: October 9th, 2006, 1:06pm EDT by sal
There is a great thread at FLAK (Further Light and Knowledge) about what it means to feel you are important in a grand, cosmic sort of way. Here's a quote:
"...the idea that I was "special" -- particularly in a way that elevated me from other, more "common", less righteous people -- was quite seductive to me, and was probably a factor in keeping me from being ready to do any real critical
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Posted: October 8th, 2006, 12:22pm EDT by sal
So we've looked at why I chose "malcontent." What about "salubrious?"
(Of course, I could be pulling this entirely out of my ass. I might have picked these words entirely at random and then come back to apply meaning after the fact....)
Something salubrious is wholesome and promotes good health.
Seems kind of strange to link this word with malcontent, right? It gets at the fundamental
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Posted: October 7th, 2006, 2:02am EDT by sal
The word "malcontent" also describes a type of character in Shakespeare's plays. You know the guy that can step back and look at the play from the outside? That's him.
He is in some limbo-land between what is happening onstage and in the audience. Sometimes he is a bridge between audience and action, and sometimes he is a critic of what he sees--he has figured out how to extricate himself
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Posted: October 6th, 2006, 9:10am EDT by sal
If you find yourself dreading work and procrastinating constantly (like me), Paul Graham's essays may help out:
How to do What you Love
Good and Bad Procrastination
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Posted: October 5th, 2006, 3:24am EDT by sal
good things happen to inactive/exmos [exmormons]-- Satan is tempting them
good things happen to TBMs [True-Believing Mormons]-- God is blessing them
bad things happen to inactive/exmos-- God is punishing them
bad things happen to TBMs-- God is testing their faith
--adrom (at exmormon.org)
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Posted: October 4th, 2006, 6:20am EDT by sal
I've always loved big words (I know this is somewhat bizarre.)
There's just something about finding the word with the perfect connotation for what you are trying to say.
I think this love of words comes from a life filled with reading. As a teenager I didn't go to parties, I read. I didn't hang out with friends much--instead, I read. In ninth grade my English teacher gave extra credit for
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Posted: October 3rd, 2006, 5:58am EDT by sal
I laughed very hard when I saw this over at Boing Boing.
"The only function of the Suspicious Looking device is to appear as suspicious as possible, whether carried in hand or placed indiscrimately in public places."
Apparently, it has a loud siren that sounds if you try to touch it. While the siren is going, wheels on the bottom scoot the thing away from you. Couple this with buttons, dials,